Letting others read your writing

Today is the first time that I printed my work and let someone other than family read it. I was good with it until I printed. Then was when the panic set in for a minute. It was one of those should I or should I not things. Fear griped me. Fear of what? Fear that it was too childish. Fear that my spelling sucked. Fear that others wasn't going to like it. Fear that I had written like a child would have. Fear of every bad thing that might be.
I started writing for my daughter. I write now because I love it and there are stories in my head that want to be written. I write for me. Not the people that might or might not like what I write. I write because I hope that someone out there will read something that I have written and say hey that was a great story. Or even that was a good story. It's a natural human trait to want people to like you. I'm no different than others on that.
The thing that I am different on is that even if there are people that don't like my stories (and I know there will be) it doesn't matter to me. It doesn't matter. It only matters to me that I'm happy with my work. I'm have that I wrote those stories that are in my head.
Fear is the one thing that can stop me if I let it. My own fear is my worse enemy. If I don't do this because of my own fear than nothing in life is worth doing. I wouldn't let my fear get in my way. I wouldn't let that fear stop me from writing the stories that I know might touch someone as they have touched me.
Fear gets in to many peoples way. I wouldn't let mine get in my way. Please don't ever let your fear get in yours.

Last nights thoughts

Journals
Current mood: artistic

I know it's been awhile since that last time that I did this. Sorry. I was writing in my old fashioned journals. I did have more than one hundred at one point but they were lost. I was thinking about it and wondered why I didn't share this with others. Really, I don't think any differently than any one else so why not just lay it all out there and see what others have to say about it. So here goes.
I've been writing a new book. I can't even begin to say how obsessed with writing these stories. I really can't keep up with my own mind. My body gets tired and needs rest before the story ends in my mind. I dream of these stories when I sleep. I almost wish that I could just pluck it out and say here, do something with this.
I also would love to adventure into doing some acting. I know its crazy but why not. Sure I'm 38 but really that doesn't matter. I think it only matters if you don't ever try. Why not? I'm as good as any other person out there. If it really happens - great. If it doesn't - well, at least I gave it a shot. No one can ever say that I wasn't willing to try things.
I don't think it's ever too late to try things. Even it is a little out of the normal. I have fears and dreams and hopes just like everyone else. I think that maybe the leg up that I have is that I'm willing to step up and try it regardless. Some people wouldn't even try.
so I say to you...go and try anything and everything...once. If you don't like it, don't do it again. If you do like, do it again. Just try and take that first step. You never know what the universe has planed to put into your path. Don't let fear keep you in the shadows of your own life. Step out into the storm. It might turn into a rainbow

New Book New Day

So let me take a minute to caught you up on what I've been to. The first book that I wrote I put on the back burner. Why, you may ask? Well, I made a decision not to proceed with that book because it was about vampires. The market is saturated with vampires right now. I didn't want to jump on the bang wagon. Please don't get me wrong. I will publish it some day. Just not now.
I've always had a fascination with vampires. I liked vampires when it wasn't the in thing to do. There are so many great authors that gave me so many hours of reading pleasure on vampires. I'll always have stories running around in my head about vampires. Now just isn't the time.
With that being said... I did start the first book of my six book series. These books will tell of the six women that are created; one every three years; to fight against the three sets of six years of the destruction of mankind. Not the destruction of the earth but the destruction of mankind's souls.
This first book is Lauren's story. Lauren was murdered and brought back by the Elements. The Elements are those that had a hand in the creation of the earth and mankind. The Elements; Water, Fire, Earth, and Air; have interior motives for bring back Lauren. They need Lauren to read an ancient scroll that was created not for them but about them. It was created to be read only by the three that can see as one.
The three that can see as one is a human, a fallen angel, and one that shares both. Lauren, a pure human that is sacrificed to begin the three sets of six years is brought back and blessed by becoming half arch-angel.

This story has murder, betrayal, adventure, and love.